So, life is kind of confusing for me right now. I am trying to stay %100 in my job at the same time realizing that my commitment to the Public Relations department is almost over. It's hard to stay "all in" when you know that your time is coming to a close and it's easy to move on to "what's next?" I mean, I can't just not think about the future at all...if I did that then I would wake up one day unemployed and I don't think that being unemployed would be a good thing.

SO, what should I do? There is the option of going overseas full-time...but to where? I mean, I started to have an interest and it's turning out to not be a good decision for right now. It's too incredibly violent. I don't know where else I might be interested. My heart has been in European countries for a very long time but it cost so much to live there. Am I living out of fear and having little faith? or am I being somewhat realistic since the economy stinks these days?

Other options: stay in the U.S., try to find a job at a church somewhere. I would be cool to work in a missions department at a church. OR, with a college age ministry somewhere. Hmm...I just don't know.

Honestly, I don't really feel like I am good at anything to even go looking for what's next. I think this would come with finding strength in the Lord and my gifts in Him. But who knows...maybe I'm not good at anything. I like to do meaningless, repetitive jobs but I don't know if working in a factory putting a lugnut on the same piece of machinery for the rest of my life is a good choice either.

Sigh...I wish that the Lord would just tell me...plain as day...Echo, my child, I want you to do ____________. Yes, I would like that I think:)